Well apparently I've had a problem keeping up with this blog…
That's not what I am going to talk about though, because that would be boring. Instead, I guess I'm going to tell you that the problem I have, that I hate the most, is that I always manage to get emotionally involved way to fast…in regards to guys.
We could sit here and psychologically analyze that problem all day, but I would really rather not. I have a feeling I know what prompts me to do this, where this problem stems from, but I don't want to explore that today,
I am committed to rectifying this problem because I want to set a better example for my daughter. I want her to see me as a strong, independent woman full of self-respect who loves herself first. A woman that does need a man, any man, to feel whole & loved. I do not want a string of men running through her life, because, psychologically, that could do irreparable damage.
I love to love...in all its forms. I possess genuine kindness and compassion for those close to me. It has gotten me quite a bit of heartache in the past, but I would rather deal with a bit of pain than shut myself off. I've been emotionally slutty and that must stop. I've learned quite a bit about myself in the past 2 or so years, and I am very different in many ways. I value myself more. I love myself more. I deserve more than cheap flattery and empty adoration. I will not settle or be blinded, not anymore.
I want my daughter to love herself and know her value prior to getting involved romantically. But ultimately, I want her to know that a strong sense of self-worth and romantic relationships are not mutually exclusive. In order for her to know that, understand it, I believe it starts with the example I set.
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