Sorry for not posting everyday, but life is chaotic with house guests and the holidays…
I am currently worrying about life…money, work, my kid, the new year, etc. It is so very hard to narrow it down and expand on just one worry. I am a worrier by nature. I worry about if I worry too much. I hate it, and I've gotten a bit better with age, but that is just the way I am.
I'm a single mom, one paycheck to sustain my lifestyle, which was established prior to my divorce. I get occasional money from my side business, but it really isn't much. I worry constantly about making my bills and still putting some back for emergencies.
Work is retarded right now. There is immense unrest/turmoil right now among many of the employees. I guess when my dad gets home from vacation we will see how it plays out. I have a feeling there will be more than one disgruntled employee around the office.
I always worry about my daughter…that will never go away.
I am worried about the new year. I worry that it will be just like the last. I worry that I will continue to perpetuate my unhappiness with my personal life. I worry that I will be confronted with more unfortunate events, and who knows what else.
I hate worrying because it's basis is normally fixed in the future, on future events. I don't like looking too far into the future because it limits your presence in the present. You can only control what you can control, and I can't control the future.
Maybe I should make my New Year's Resolution to stop worrying so much?!
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